The Traumatizing Impact of War Flashbacks: A Personal Account

Introduction

War flashbacks can be highly traumatizing experiences for individuals who have undergone combat. These vivid and distressing recollections of traumatic events, often accompanied by intense emotional and physical reactions, can significantly impact an individual’s well-being and daily functioning. In this article, we explore the personal experiences of a war veteran who has experienced these flashbacks in different conflict zones, and underscore the importance of seeking professional help and support.

The Daily Struggle with War Flashbacks

A Bitter Reflection of Past

I engage in flashbacks every day, a phenomenon that is not particularly surprising considering my combat experiences. I have fought in three wars: Bosnia, Kosovo, and now in Ukraine. In each location, I have encountered physical and emotional trauma that haunts me even now. The most recent flashback occurred while I was walking to a meeting in a Kyiv suburb. To my surprise, the ground was sandy, and there were numerous pine trees along the street. The buildings looked similar to those I had seen in Mostar, a city in Bosnia that experienced considerable fighting. The dilapidation level was alarming, and the environment brought back intense memories of my time in Bosnia.

Flashbacks in Combat Zones

Calculated Recollections

The buildings in Kyiv were in a state of disrepair, reminiscent of the post-war infrastructure in Bosnia. These recollections are not limited to landscapes; the physical environment often triggers vivid flashbacks. In the Kyiv suburb, I saw broken benches, a heatwave, and the absence of any unpleasant smells. These elements were familiar from my experiences in Bosnia, where the air was oftentimes tainted by the stench of human sweat, dead animals, and feces. The lack of smell in Kyiv provided a stark contrast, yet it was no less a reminder of the past.

Emotional Contrast with My Experiences

Walking in Kyiv, I experienced a mix of emotions. On one hand, the dilapidated buildings brought back painful memories, but on the other hand, I recalled better days during the war. I remembered sitting on similar benches, enjoying sips of beer with my Croatian comrades under the shade of a tree. These positive memories, however rare, provided a sense of continuity and resilience.

The Healing Process

The Importance of Professional Support

It is crucial to recognize the importance of seeking professional help and support when dealing with such traumatic experiences. Flashbacks and the associated emotional and physical distress can significantly impede an individual’s ability to function and thrive. Meeting with therapists and other support networks can help in processing these memories and developing coping strategies.

Conclusion

A Call for Support

If you wish to help me support Ukrainian civilians and military volunteers, both foreign and local, please use the email address provided in my profile description. Together, we can provide the support and resources necessary to help individuals like me navigate the challenges of combat trauma and find healing.